Monday, March 29, 2010

IF I COULD JUST SIT WITH YOU AWHILE (Dennis Jernigan)

When I cannot feel

When my wounds don’t heal

Lord, I humbly kneel, hidden in You

Lord, You are my life

So I don’t mind to die

Just as long as I am hidden in You

If I could just sit with You awhile

If You could just hold me

Nothing could touch me, though I’m wounded

Though I die

If I could just sit with awhile

I need You to hold me

Moment by moment till forever passes by

When I know I’ve sin

When I should have been,

Crying out My God, I’m hidden in You

Lord, I need You now

More than I know how

So I humbly bow hidden in You

I need You to hold me

Moment by  moment till forever passes by

If I could just sit with You awhile.  That’s what You want, Lord Jesus.  How could I not give You what You want from me?  It’s seems so simple, just sitting down early in the morning and talking to You.  It’s not simple, there are so many things to do, so many tasks that have to be done.  Sometimes, what should be my first priority, becomes “well, I will do that later” and later becomes further and further away.  I ask You Lord Jesus to forgive me for putting other things ahead of spending time with You. 

The other day after I wrote my journal that talked about Londyn calling my name, someone said to me, “enjoy that because soon she will grow up and you won’t hear her calling you Meme over and over again”.  I asked myself, “why is that”.  I think it’s because as she grows older, she won’t need me so much.  She will be more independent.  That is a good and natural event in this temporal life.  That’s the natural course of events.  But….In the scriptures it says that we are to be like little children. (trusting) Matthew 18:3  Rather than independent, we are to be dependent on our Father.  We are to grow up in our relationship with the Father, but I believe He wants us dependent on Him.  He knows our limitations and He is God and has no limitations.

So today Lord, I will spend time with You, depending on You to walk me through life.  I will hide myself under Your shadow.  I will listen to that still, small voice as You speak to me.  I would ask that You might yell when necessary as sometimes I am a “little” hard of hearing.  I ask You to help me be still as sometimes I am a little antsy and allow the other pestering noises to infiltrate my head.  I bind up the things that would draw my attention away from You.  I loose Your Holy Spirit to flood my mind and drown out the other distractions that would desire to steer me off course.  I recognize that You are the Champion and I WIN because I am hidden in You.  Today I am

Peaking out,

Mary Ann