TUESDAY April 20, 2010

I WILL TRUST YOU (James Fortune)

One of the most difficult things to do is
find yourself in a storm and
while in that storm it seems like everyone who you
thought you could count on has
well walked away; and
Sometimes it seems like even God Himself has
forgotten about you.
But in spite of it all you should still be able
to lift your hands and say
"Lord, I trust You"
Even though I can’t see
and I can’t feel Your touch
I will trust You Lord
how I love You so much
though my nights may seem long
and I feel so alone
Lord my trust is in You
I surrender to You
so many painful thoughts
travel through my mind
and I wonder how
I will make it through this time
everything that I see
tells me not to believe
but I’ll trust You Lord
You have never failed me
my past still controls me
will this hurt ever leave?
I can only trust You
no one loves like You do
but I'll trust You
Lord it’s not easy
Sometimes the pain in my life
makes You seem far away
But I’ll trust You
I need to know You’re here
through the tears and the pain
through the heartache and rain
I can
I will
I must
trust You
I will
trust You

I surrender all, all to Jesus, I surrender.  Good morning, Lord.  There is no love sweeter than the love You pour on me.  There’s no song sweeter than the one You sing over me.  No one deserves my love more than You.  No person, no event, no excitement, no disappointment, nothing comes before You.  I repent of the sins and habits that I have committed against You.  I ask for Your mercy as I walk in this life.  I will enter Your gates with thanksgiving and I come into Your courts with Praise.  This is the day that You have made and I will rejoice and be glad in it.  That is the choice that I have made for today.

Trust.  You have been good, You have been faithful.  I am waiting on an answer to something really important.  Yesterday was supposed to be the final answer, I was supposed to know the answer at least by 5:00 in the afternoon.  Well, all day, I was suppressing the anxiety, the minutes clicked by.  I began getting anxious about 2:00 (as the final answer could have been earlier), no word, nothing.  I froze, I couldn’t think about anything else.  So….by 5:00, I was a mess.  I blew it, I called the person with the answer ???? and let them have it for their imperfection and incompetency.  The Lord spoke to my heart this morning and explained something to me.

First of all, I was into depending on myself to work this thing out.  Because of my “fixing” it, I got into fear (because I am incapable of making things work, I have no power)  I was afraid of the answer and that fear produced thoughts of perfection and expectation of others.  Where was faith?  Where was the knowledge that God works all things out for our good?  I was trying to be a “grown up” with childlike “abilities”.  I am so sorry.  “My yoke is easy and my burdens are light”.  Oh Lord, You have been good, You have been faithful through all generations.  You didn’t just stop with me, You are now and forever will be.  I relax in Your presence and accept the steps that You have put before me.  Today I am

Covered in Your Grace,

Mary Ann