FRIDAY May 14, 2010

BREAK THROUGH (Michael English)

I sing all the songs

Read all about you

Know right from wrong

What does it amount to

My life doesn’t show how much I love you

I need you to break through, tear down all the walls

Let everything fall

I want to praise you, nothing between you and me

I need you to break through

I know there is more yet to discover

So many things, you want to uncover

I’ve made  just a scratch in the surface

I want to go deeper.

Break through the pride,

Break through the shame

I’ve had enough of staying the same

Break through the fear

I’m getting tired of staying the same

I want to praise you, nothing between you and me.  I will praise You this morning, not because I “feel” like it, but because I love You and I recognize Your heart in my life.  I sense Your concern for me, I sense Your protection over me.  Nothing between You and me.  Father, if I have sinned against Your love for me, please forgive me.  Yes, I know that I was guilty of “that” and I ask for Your forgiveness.  I thank You Jesus for bearing the weight of my sin.  Father, give me the strength to overcome the iniquity in my life.  Tear down the walls and let everything fall, I want to praise You, nothing between you and me.  Break through my pride, break through the drive to please others.  Forgive me give me Your mercy to forgive others that have hurt and offended me.  I’ve had enough of staying the same.  I’ve had enough of “being normal” whatever that means.  I’ve had enough of desiring to “keep everyone happy”.  I desire to be who You have made me to be, not what I perceive “humans” expect of me.

Normal.  I often thought, “if I could just look like that other person, if I could just succeed in “that” area of my life….then everything would be good”.  Then I talk to some of those people and I see that even though they are “perfect” because they are “whatever???”, they still struggle with something or someone.  I listen to them in amazement and I have great compassion on their fears and struggles.  I think “this can’t be, if I looked like them, I would always be happy, I wouldn’t wake up in the morning crying out to God, praying for His touch”.  I would have everything I need if I could just “overcome” this problem that I have. 

How humbling it is that You love me, Lord Jesus.  Your love for me is the only “perfect” thing I have ever known.  You know me better than anyone else.  Scriptures say that man looks on the outer man, but You look on the heart.  Father, I can’t fix my heart, I don’t even know it that well, but You do and You can.  I ask You to fix my heart, make me more like You.  I desire my life to shout “I LOVE YOU JESUS, I NEED YOU, YOU ARE THE ONLY WAY TO PEACE”.  I need a break through, I need to have my temple repaired and restored.  You have a plan, I want to carry it out.  Give me the direction that I need, show me the blueprints.  If I don’t have the responsibility to follow the blueprints, that is Your Job Description, let me at least wake up every day ready to work in the responsibility You have for me.  And also, God, please make my job clearer, sometimes my attention is scattered.  Today I am

Secure knowing there is a plan,

Mary Ann