FRIDAY May 7, 2010

SOMETHING’S GOTTA CHANGE (Josh Wilson)

I’m thirsty, God I’m thirsty

From drinking what destroys me

I’m pouring poison in my cup

I’m hungry, God I’m hungry

Consume me, what controls me

Somehow it never fills me up

We all want to find something to pass the time, but that could never be enough

Everybody says we’re all so different

Everybody knows we’re all the same

We all try to find a pill to numb the pain

Something’s gotta change

Do you remember where you have so much hopeless in you

It lingers deep inside you still

Though more of us we swallow

The more we become hollow

Until we don’t know how to feel

We all want to find something to satisfy, but we could never be enough

When everything we say and take just leads to war and hate

We only pass the blame and sedate the pain and move along

But something feels so wrong

So deep inside, so hard to hide

So desperately we try and try and come to find we are not what we are looking for

I can’t believe that I’m hearing people say that all is well

I think it’s time we all admit we have no good inside ourselves

Cause we are not okay, we’re not allright

We need to pray for help

Forgive us for our pride, Oh God, Oh God please save us from ourselves

I hope I have all the words to this song.  It is a very intense song with lots of good words.  You challenge me, Lord Jesus.  I have been saying and praying these words for quite awhile now and I believe you are doing great things in my heart and life.  I am listening to the wisdom that you have given other men and women.  I am learning to depend on You.  We are making plans in our heart….but you are directing our steps.  We realize that we are not what we are looking for.  We are listening for that still small voice, but when we are not hearing it, You are shouting and we hear that.  God help us.  We are Your children and we love and honor You as being the Lord of our lives.

Right now as I “speak”, my little darling is lying in the bed.  We had a wonderful day yesterday and today we are going to “play” all day.  I delight in her and she delights in me.  My heart just jumps when I hear her say “meme.”  Yesterday I followed her around and let her explore many different places and things.  I only intervened when I thought something was going to harm her.  I simply walked beside her and allowed her to go where she wanted to go, do what she wanted to do.  I could see where the dangers were, she couldn’t.  I was amused, intrigued, interested in her “wanderings”.  She heard children’s voices when we were at the park and wanted to get to the kids and play.  She started off in the wrong direction though and I had to make her get in the golf cart and go around instead of going straight through the woods (the shorter way).  She wasn’t happy, she didn’t understand, but I knew best and when she got to the other park, she was happy and content in seeing the other children.

Lord, You are good, You are faithful.  You are so much better than even my small attempts of love and protection towards my precious granddaughter.  You are God, the Creator of the whole Earth.  You have all power.  The problem with me is that many times I am like Londyn and think I know the right way more than You.  Do I hear something and think I know without a doubt the way to get there?  Unfortunately I do.  Forgive me, never leave my side.  To the ends of the whole earth, Your love endures forever.  Jesus, You gave Your life for me.  You have shown Your deep love and commitment to me.  You have proven time and time again that You know how to get “there”.  I trust You, even when I am headstrong and think and act like I know what to do more than You.  Today I am

Delighting in that little girl,

Mary Ann